Heres a quote ive found which means alot. "The only thing we have to fear is fear it'self - nameless, unreasoning, unjustified, terror which paralyzes needed efforts to convert retreat into advance." ---- FDR - First Inaugural Address, March 4, 1933 Lately , i have been thinking about what will happen to me when i go to the US. Will i be just another asian chink who sits at the back of the class and just study all day? Or will i be the cool asian dude who hangs out and chill with ma bros from another mother(lol wtf). I have had nightmares in which im the nerdy asian dude... who sits at the back of the class and gets ridiculed by all the whites and blacks; the dude with no friends;nobody to talk to and sits in his dorm and studies the whole day. I think thats what happened to the korean guy at the virginia tech university. He probably felt so lonely and angry at all the blacks and whites that one day he pulled out his pistol and screamed..."HOW YOU LIKE ME NOW EH?!?!?!" *bang bang bang*. Who knows maybe ill become like him. Buy a small Uzi..... conceal it.... go inside the classroom and..... " HUAT AH!!!!!!!" bang bang bang bang bang lol.... But than again.... i HIGHLY doubt so... since i dont have the balls to shoot someone lol.
All these thoughts are due to fear.. And its how you deal with it which is very important. When i go for work at my depot, i always fear that ill do something wrong like making the wrong documents (cant state what kind of documents =x confidential) or counting the wrong qty of ammo. Its not the fear of me getting scolded, but rather the fear that my actions will cause others to have more work to do. I hate the feeling, when others have to do more unecessary work due to my mistakes. I don't know about you but thats how i always feel =x.
Well back on the me-going-to-us-topic. I've been thinking whether i should like wear those kinda hip hop stuff and walk around with my hands at my crotch and speak like" this dude.... yoyo check this shit out. erh! erh! i can rap dude..." or should i just be me, plain old singaporean mentality. Im just afraid the americans wont understand my accent or my crappy sense of humour lol... i dont wanna be lame T_T..... heh
Anyway, today we pretty much settled our trip to brisbane. and im happy since it took soooo long. i also finally applied for my driving lessons and stuff. omg must go all the way to bukit batok... sooo farrrr....
lastly, all i wan to say is... 8 MORE MONTHS TO ORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CANT WAIT CANT WAIT ROAR!!!!!!!!!
I would like to end this post with a quote:
"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain." --- Frank Herbert, Dune - Bene Gesserit Litany Against Fear
6:53 AM
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Second part for NDP fireworks 08!!! :D and again plz watch in high quality
3:23 AM
Heres the first part for NDP fireworkz......
Plz try to go youtube and click watch in high quality.... will be alot clearer. any1 know how to post the video in high quality??
12:30 AM
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Wierd Balloon shit..
heres more pics!!! :X Took some pics of the city.... looks great from my angle...
12:01 PM
Met pearlyn at ndp today :D..... haha long time nv see her liao... still looking great eh...
Me, sgt daniel,joseph and necine!!...... Haha campmates....
Hello.... us again with the fireworks contractor dude....
Me,Sam,Desmond,Kenneth and other dudes..... water fountain wootx..
More pictures incoming soon...... and fireworks videos.... just waiting for it to upload on youtube lol...
super suay.... the fireworks debris hit my head T_T..
11:48 AM
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Haha check out this video of price is right.... super funny haha...
8:40 AM
Wah.... super xiong day sia..... whole day work like siao. SAF really make us of our 70 cents a day... kena suck dry today like a bloody bangla...
needed to OT all the way until 11 Pm sia... 7:45 all the way to 11Pm of non-stop work.. thats like 15 hours sia..... shags...
8:33 AM
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Woot Lobster Claws!! :D
this is what i like to cal... lobster Finito.....
6 pounds lobster!!!!
Hehe... all these taken in Las Vegas during my May trip to US .... But my main purpose of the trip was to visit school.... so heres some pics...
Hehe.. pics of stamford university.... one of the top university but than too bad i cant go in one la.. Haha and the pple there all look soooo stressed out... Still got some more pics but lazy post now.... so some other time ba .. cyaaa
3:51 AM
Monday, August 4, 2008
wahhh..... last saturday ndp preview, fallout so late T_T.... 2 am than fallout... sian everyweek confirm got problem. either the barge got problem or the towers got problem. unfortunately this week the tower got super alot of problems while the barge was perfect lol. expend only like 20% of the fireworks nia. Sian, must wait for all the contractors to climb up and bring down, than we must go shun all the wires for safety precaution.... pull the wire plastic until my nail gone fuck sia haha.
oh well.... but the fireworks was definitely beautiful though :D.
12:51 AM
Yay!!! planning to go cairns with my friends for holiday in october!! WOOT...... finally can get out of singapore. this is the first time where im planning my own trip, since most of the time when i go overseas, my parents are the one who does the planning. i've realized...... there are alot of things to consider!!!! which way cheaper... where more fun... blah blah blah. Haha, so in the end decided to take jetstar from sg to cairns via darwin. not bad quite cheap since now on offer, 188 including tax and airport charges but excluding baggage.
gonna visit palm cove and port douglas, any1 been to cairns before?? got any places to reccomend??
12:46 AM
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Hehe, heres the fireworks for NDP National education show on 19 july... which means its only 25% of whats shown on national day lol. so heres just a preview courtesy of Nicholas Lum since his cam is so much better lol. ill post the 100% ndp fireworks when the time comes :D.
Not so good resolution because its just a camera handphone.. im gonna bring my cam at record it next saturday if possible :D.
9:00 AM
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Hehe.. pics of stamford university.... one of the top university but than too bad i cant go in one la.. Haha and the pple there all look soooo stressed out...