Wednesday, July 30, 2008
so lately as u all know... ive been busy at ndp.. which means i do absolutely nothing but sentry and talk cock lol...... but one thing is...
Ive been talking to gerald and he told me this... which made me think.
"I've been serving this country for 1.5 years..... its time i do things for myself.."
god... i totally agree with him. Ever since i step foot in pad i didnt want to take excuse uniform. Because of the fact that i will cause other people to do more duty. But now..... after what he has said.. damn i need to find a specialist to extend my excuse!! i mean.. WHO THE HELL CARES HOW MANY DUTIES THOSE PPLE NEEDS TO DO..... i only care about how much i need to do. and btw prowling is a pain in the ass.
7:27 AM
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Lately i have been thinking, whether i am being very egotistical or having high self esteem. So here is a article i got from http://ezinearticles.com/?Big-Ego-or-Self-Esteem?&id=106973.
"I received an email from a reader who wanted to know how it is possible to have a highly developed level of self-esteem without becoming, or seeming to be, egotistical. The very question shows that our cultural brainwashing works to limit one's belief in one's self and self worth. Being egotistical is seen to be a negative thing and, by inference, those with extra high levels of self-esteem are taken to be egotistical; therefore bad.
First of all, let's clarify the difference: Egotists are essentially insecure people who are attempting to cover up their own suspicion that they are not quite as good as other people by pretending that they are more important. People with very high levels of self-esteem do not need to determine their self-worth by comparing themselves, either publicly or in their own minds, with others.
An egotistical person's sense of self-worth is mostly determined by external conditions, circumstances or events.
They promote themselves so that they can be convinced of their own value by the feedback they receive from peers, fans, voters, employees or even their own children. They often strive to be high achievers because they can then get the acclaim of others, in the hope that this acclaim will somehow prove their worth; though it seldom erases the suspicion that they are unworthy. It is not a bad thing to be egotistical; it is just sad.
A self-esteemed person's sense of self-worth is mostly determined by internal conditions like attitude, compassion, belief, passion and personal vision. They also tend to have a direct sense of their relationship with divinity. Not the kind of divinity promulgated by preachers, mullahs and gurus who teach that human beings are base creatures who can only merit salvation by submitting to the will of some god; but the kind of divinity that teaches that all things, including you, are sacred and worthy of being honored as such.
That's the trick to having a high level of self-esteem: to know yourself as being both a sacred creature and a divine creator; and then to honor yourself as such by acting as such. If you want to develop a high level of self-esteem, you must first come to know your true self and then, you must fall in love with your true self. That's another bit of cultural brainwashing you must overcome. Self-love is often seen as narcissism or extreme vanity. It is not; any more than self-esteem is egotism.
So change your perspective. Having a high level of self-esteem does not equate to being egotistical. If others wish to interpret your sense of self-worth as meaning that you have a big ego, let them. That's their problem, not yours. Loving yourself unconditionally does not equate to narcissism. It is simply honoring that spark of divinity that resides in you. Those who also honor their own divinity will not think you vainglorious; they will simply say "namaste". Namaste means, 'the sacred in me recognizes and honors the sacred in you'.
Forget the big ego. Know thyself; honor thyself; love thyself. Then go about your job of being a contribution to your fellow creatures. Modern day culture teaches that the more you accumulate, the more you are worth. The truth of the matter is that the more you give, the more you are worth. The more you are worth, the more wealthy you can become. If you want to be wealthy, develop your self-esteem. If you want to be prosperous, become abundantly worthy. Believe in you.
The true measure of your wealth is not measured by what you are able to accumulate, but by what you are enabled to contribute."
© Leslie Fieger. All rights reserved worldwide.
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After reading this article, im rather confused with what type off person i am. A high confidence person or a egotistical person. I think that when i do my work im serious and do my best in doing it and i think im rather Okay with it, but for some reasons i like to compare myself with others. Could it be a sick desire to feel better than others?? i hope not lols.
4:31 AM
Friday, July 25, 2008
yes la!!!!.... today morning fire drill so our commanders give us half day off.... so we go for our dept cohesion...
The best thing about this cohesion is..... WO TOH DIDNT GO!!! WOOT!!...
so it was a BBQ at kenneth house where we saw alot of hot girls lol.... we played tennis and table tennis and than ate the BBQ which i did not cook..... too lazy ehh....
But damn emo la today....... kena compared to chris chee..... sian.... of all pple why compare me wif chris chee.....
god... i hate to be compared to people who i feel is worst than me.... although its kinda childish but... oh well.... i just cant stand it.
So we went home at 8+++ than later planning to go out at 10++++ damn shag sia today.. whole day headache.... lols....
kk
Peace
6:29 AM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
5:24 AM
YouTube - Whose Line is it Anyway - Informercial - Arm hairBEST SHOW EVERRRR!!!!!!
4:55 AM
lol i got so many things to blog about sia...... but sian cannot talk about it because its classified..... later the MSD pple come find me and charge me lol....
today damn lame though.... was having some ops training thing.... haha whole day sit infront of com set and record stuff.. damn boring sia......................................
btw wei kiat....... whens our mhss outing??? wanna go visit mhss teachers in bhss?? lol
So i watched "Dark Knight" last saturday..... Omg la its damn nice.... Heath Ledger is a damn good actor la........
" Whyy..... So... SERIOUS!!!"
"Lets put a smile on your face.... hahahahahah"
lol damn nice.... its a must watch show this yr......
So far this year got 2 must watch show......
Get smart And Dark Knight.....
so.... last last week on saturday, i was at NDP setting up the fireworks, and guess who i saw?.....
Pearlyn!!! from mhss.. too bad she was busy than got no chance to go find her......
By the way ar guys. this yr fireworks damn nice!!!!! u know why??? because im there to help out!! MUHAHAAAHAHAHA....... ndp is great for NS pple.... can see alot of hot girls/dancers/ahlians LOLs....
k la thats all ive got to say for now... Heres some pics from my 1year anniversary in Army lol.....
4:33 AM
Monday, July 21, 2008
Hello!! Im back .. lol check out the wall of text below :D
LF Girl to go on date with me plz LOL!!!!!
7:13 AM
So as all of you know, im still in NS awaiting my ORD which is in... hmmmm.... about 8 months!!!!! quite soon ill say.
i have been told by everyone before i went NS that NS is a bloody waste of time, but i disagree with them.
To them honest with you i wasnt quite ready to enter on my enlistment date so much so that i actually cried on the first few days. After the first few days i naturally adapted to the surrounding and started to make friends.
One thing is for sure, BMT is probably the Best experience u ever have( in terms of fun.... but it also depends on the people.). For me i was in PES C9L9 so as u all know..... it was very SLACK everyday standby bed and area cleaning and clean rifle quite boring, but at least got to make new friends.
The 7 weeks passed by very eventfully, and i received my vocation. I actually thought i was gonna be a clerk who slacks all day in the office and play dota when my boss is not around but sadly( was dissapointed then) i was posted to the vocation ( Ammunition Supply Assistant ). We gone through a period of 3 weeks to learn all the crap about ammunition which is inapplicable to what we really do in the depot lol. The next period of slackness comes after BMT where u go for courses. During courses, most of the time u probably just sleep or play games lol.
Ok, So after this 3 weeks of crap learning and copying answers we got posted to our respective depot. Well, i got posted to Peirce Ammunition Depot at Rifle Range Road which is near opposite King albert Part Macdonalds which is opposite Ngee Ann poly. Lol im so near to my secondary school friends... yet so farrr.......
Well, one thing is for sure, PAD is probably the MOST fucked up working environment ever. You got to work so hard.... and for what? so that your regulars who get paid 2k++++ get to slack lol....(not aiming at all the regulars. some of them are hardworking though). So after 1 year i realized.... " Why am i working so hard in this crappy organization?" this is the point where i started to chao keng and slack, although i still do the things required to not dissapoint my colleagues.
One thing which i learned from PAD is that, even if the working environment sucks, it is still a great place to work in because of the people in this association. It is us who make each others life easier by talking ALOT of crap which make us literally ROFL and LMAO. Alot of my friends who ORDed tells me that life as a civilian is overrated although u get the freedom and everything which comes with the package, but one thing is leave behind is the time you spend with ur friends everyday having fun lol.
I believe that my choice for my early enlistment was a great one despite everybody telling me i was too young and what not, but it is definitely a life changing experience.
Anyway, to those who are gonna enlist..... all i gotta say is... ORD LOH!!!!! PLEASE HELP ME TO SPELL REC-ORD PLZZZZ....!!!!!
Hehe peace
6:57 AM
6:56 AM
Hello everyone, its been mighty long since i last blog. last time i blog i was a childish immature son of a bitch......................................................... and now............................
Im still an immature childish son of a bitch........ awesome lol.
6:55 AM
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